HelperMonkeyBronx, New YorkMember Since: 07/15/2008Last Login: 11/18/2008 10:42 pm About Me Music Movies Books Other Hey, my name is Ryan. my nickname is Chibi on account that i have a big head so i look like chibi anime drawings. I'm kind of a shy person... ok I'm a very shy person and very nerdy yet technologically impaired.I am a vegitarian and I LOVE cooking, just love it, and so does everyone else who has tasted my weird but good tasting concoctions. I listen 2 rock of all types: System of a Down, Weird Al, Johnny Cash, H.I.M, A.F.I, Disturbed, Red Hot Chili Peppers. i also unofficially(listen 2 and like just ' know alot of their songs) like: Paramore, Blaqk Audio, Asaki, Ludo, Death Cab for Cutie, The Rasmus, Apocalyptica, Mozart, Bethoveen, ShinyToy Guns, 69 Eyes, Die Toten Hosen, Rammstein, Within Temptation, CKY, Modest Mouse, Superbus, Neurosonic... You get the point, I bounce around the rock scene. I'm mostly Celtic w/ hints of Japanese, German, and Russian. But, dont let my great connections to the Axis Powers fool you i think I'm good guy  .
Now its story time(WARNING: you dont have to read the rest its my life story...kinda):
The reason why I joined TWLOHA is so I can help people who are suffering more than I am. Right now I just started college in a college I despise. It is the only one I got in to so i have half a year of hell in that place. Because of that and summer classes killing my summer I think I am suffering from minor depression. I have lost my drive, i don't do anything but go to school, come home, and stay in my room unless i need food. Don't worry i haven't done anything dangerous(even though i want to) i stop myself. But, knowing that what I am going through is still considered minor. I thought I was depressed in the past but it was just a little emotional drop compared to this. i found TWLOHA yesterday from Hot Topic. After watching that video it gave me hope for myself and to help others. To the friends i had (I miss my HS friends so much) I think they trusted me to help them, especially 2. 1 was like my sister we helped each other out with everything, except homework. We used to go to each other for help with depression, relationships, boredom, etc. But, we lost contact because of a bunch of stupid small fights, 1 after another, that i am sorry for because they were all my fault(she knows who she is). the other 1 still goes though problems and i am still with her to help her through most or all her problems. I hope I'm doing a good job(she knows who she is to). 1 of the reasons why I think I'm depressed as of now is because I think I am useless. Grammar school was cruel and unusual punishment for me, just let me know if you want to know about it.But, when i was in high school i finally met people who actually liked me. The found out what kind of a person i was and learned to trust me, i guess quickly i was happy. then i lost my "sister" so then I was down to just 1 friend that made me feel useful. Then i graduated, lost most contact with my friends, was sent to stupid math, and was made fun of on the 1st day of class. It reminds me of my Grammar school days and I h8 it, I'm useless again. And now to make me feel so accomplished I wrote my life story in a paragraph _ _'. But, luckily i found TWLOHA and even me buying 1 T-Shirt from them makes me feel useful, so I wonder how helping them even more by doing this will make me feel? I already bored you all with that long pointless list X] Anything funny, scary, political, or Cloverfield. Cloverfield scared the crap out of me, I live in New York ((O_O)) Only 1 book is worth going under here:
1984 People of Interest:Anyone and Everyone who accepts me for who i am, or whoever gives me a blueberry muffin. YUMMY Places of Interest:Right now my room is the only place i like(will b updated as soon as i get out of my slump, maybe you guys can help?)Things of Interest:Swimming, Eating, Sleeping, Animals, Theater(Stage Crew!!), Helping others through their tough moments  Private |
